Reflections

At the moment, I'm sitting in my bed with my legs tucked up under me writing this post. It's been a  VERY long week and all I can say it THANK GOD IT'S OVER! I can't even begin to tell you where the problems started. I think it was on Sunday night when I worked until 3:00am Monday morning. Constantly counting pills from our big machine in the pharmacy. RIDICULOUS. By the time I got home and settled, I still didn't fall asleep until 4am-ish. I was up about 6 hours later, and I know that seems like it should be enough sleep, but it really wasn't. I was a zombie all day Monday. I just couldn't seem to wake up.

Tuesday rolled around and I have to be up at 5am every Tuesday now for work (thankfully I'm done by 11am and I can go home and at least try and sleep). Most of the time I end up cleaning my apartment and doing laundry and such things. I try and do "domestic" things when Brian's not around so I can make sure they get done and he doesn't get in my way. It's not that he is a bother, but he tries to help sometimes and there's just not enough room for both of us. Don't get me wrong, I really do appreciate his help.

Wednesday was just a blah day. I wasn't very happy. Not in the mood to be at work -which by the way was insane and where most of my problems stemmed from. I wanted to run away and never come back. It was horrible. I knew that I had other things that I could be taking care of, and the fact that I hadn't slept very well for a couple nights in a row was not helping matters. I was very tired and irritable. Sometimes I wonder if I'm pregnant...haha

Thursday wasn't really too bad - bad enough - but nothing like it was Wednesday...I think it was a precursor to what the Friday and today would be like. BOTH AWFUL! I felt like I wanted to smoke 12 packs of cigarettes and I don't even smoke.

The weather has also been pretty crappy. Very windy and rainy. Around here, we are really waiting for the sun to arrive and for it to finally warm up. It never seems like it's going to happen.

Please pray that I get out of my funk. Brian will be back from camp tomorrow and I'm looking forward to seeing him, but the break has also been nice. I like that he's able to get away and spend some quality guy time. I've been able to keep myself busy (maybe too busy, my poor puppy has been alone most of the weekend). All is well though.

I have more things that I'd like to write about, but I think now is a good time to stop.