Have you ever felt like God is calling you to do something?

What about feeling like He's calling you to do something you aren't worthy of?

How do you handle that?

It's been over a year since I've been a praise leader at my church. It definitely hasn't been easy, and it's not always fun, but I believe it's right where God wants me.

I have to admit, when this was all thrown at me (literally,) I had no idea what I was doing or how I was going to handle being a leader of a group of people.

I've never thought of myself as a leader. I feel like I've always been more of a follower.

How was I supposed to help this group of people to lead an entire church congregation into a state of worship before the Lord?

I'm not equipped for this. I'm certainly not a mature enough Christian for this. 

At the time this was all given to me, I didn't even really have the time to do it. I thought "maybe I can get away with just pulling a couple songs for a few weeks and try to get through them on the guitar." 

"Maybe they'll find someone else to take this position so I can just to back to being the bass player and standing in the background."

The Lord is funny and He knows just what He's doing, no doubt about it.

After holding this position for over a year, I can see how it's changed me.

I'm not afraid to take charge of a group of people anymore. Maybe a little uncomfortable seeing as I am the youngest one on the praise team, but I can still do it.

I wasn't the greatest at playing the guitar when I first started. I was lucky if I could get through five songs or so. 

Now that I've been playing multiple times a week for over a year, I can see how my skills have sharpened.

I'm still not good by any means, but I make it through. There's times where I notice things sound better and I'm kind of surprised at myself. 

Then I think, "this isn't me." "This has to be the Lord carrying me through these songs."

All that aside, lately I've been really feeling like there's so much more to be done as a praise leader.

I need to make sure I'm where I need to be in my walk with the Lord.

How am I supposed to be an effective praise leader when I don't even pray regularly or read a bible half the time?

How do I expect to be a blessing to this church without getting blessed from the Lord?

There's so much that's been on my heart lately and I've really been struggling.

I've become complacent with where I am and I don't like it one bit.

I feel the Lord moving and telling me it's time to make changes, but at the same time I'm lazy and think "I'll get to it tomorrow."

No matter what's going on, there always needs to be time set aside for the Lord.

I'm learning that now. 

It's time to re-prioritize and get right and get where I need to be so I can be effective.

It's time to get focused.