It's ALMOST the Weekend

For some reason this week has felt like it's dragged. I can't wait until 5:00 tonight where I can say I'm "free" for 2 days. I have zero plans for the weekend (except to finally get this house clean and ready for company). Christmas is right around the corner and I love it when the house is decorated and we can relax with the glow of the Christmas lights. I started working my butt off in the kitchen yesterday so I'd have a head start on Saturday. The kitchen is really the only room in the house that's a disaster area. I plan on mopping all the floors and scrubbing things down. I want it to smell clean and homey. When people come over I want them to feel like they're right at home. It's starting to look nice and I'd like to keep it that way. I always tell myself I want to be one of those people whose houses are in good order and things are put away where they belong blah blah blah. I'd still like to be that person but I think I've had a reality check and I know it's not that easy. I think our house would be like that if I didn't come home from work every day exhausted.

Today is my second interview with the media company. I will actually be going with someone to "shadow" them and see exactly what they do. This will give me a better idea if I'd actually like to do this on a daily basis. I'm almost torn though, because I just had my review at work yesterday (finally) and I got the highest raise I can get (I'm not sure how much I'll be getting) and there's talk of making me a permanent inventory specialist, and there's also talk of bringing in a second lead technician. I was told yesterday that I have to start being a little more "forceful" with my co-workers (which I don't particularly like). He essentially told me that I need to start telling people to step up and work harder and I know they'll love me for that. See, my goal is to not make people hate me. Obviously. I get along great with everyone I work with and I don't want people to start resenting me if he does make me the other lead technician. He told me I was a leader in the store and I need to set an example. I appreciate his words, but I certainly don't want people hating me. If I do get that position, I'm going to be everyone's least favorite person because I'm just going to have to pass down information that they don't want to hear. Not to mention the fact I'll feel like I'm walking all over people. There are people that have been there for years and years and I'm sure I'd get the whole "I've been here longer why are you the lead tech?" I know there are some people who'd gladly say "take it" because they don't want to deal with the responsibilities.

Anyway, I need to go get ready for work. I'll be working from 9 until about 10:45 then I'll be heading to my second interview then back to work after that. I think I want to stay with CVS and see what happens but I can't stand the stress. My doctor and my dentist both told me to quit. I'm clenching my jaw and grinding my teeth so much that I'm wearing away the enamel on some teeth. With this other job though, I don't know if I can stand "selling" things to people (although I'm not 100% sure if that's what I'd be doing.) Guess I'll find out.
It's time to do some serious praying and see exactly where God wants me and what he wants me to do.