It's been quite a while since I've actually posted something. OOPS! Sometimes you just have those days where you don't want to lift a finger. Days where you've become positively exhausted and the thought of picking up your computer to type a short blog just seems too much. I've been having a lot of those days lately. It's not that I have nothing to say. Believe me, I am not a girl who's lacking in the word department. It's just that I have been so worn down and tired and it seems to much. Truthfully I believe it's work related. You wouldn't think working in a pharmacy is a stressful job. Well, there's a lot that goes on behind the scenes. When I come home and I'm in a funk it's hard to explain to Brian exactly what my problem is and why I feel the way I do. When I try to tell him about things that have happened it's hard for him to truly understand the details because he doesn't deal with the issues like I do. He doesn't understand everything I'm explaining to him. As I said, it's understandable. He doesn't deal with the same things I do throughout the day. Sometimes I read other blogs and I think "wow these people really have it all together" but then I remember I don't see what really goes on in their homes. Maybe some people really do have it all together. They work a full time job, they're active and involved in their children's lives. They cook and clean and run to soccer games and meetings and appointments. Kudos to those of you who can do that. I work a full time job and don't have any kids and still find that it's difficult to keep it all together. You will almost always find a dish or two in my sink, my carpet will have dog and cat hair that needs to be vacuumed. The bed won't always necessarily be made and there may be toothpaste in the sink and laundry that needs done.

Deep down I really to want to be one of those people. I want my house to be ready for company to come over yet still look lived in. I want to be one of those mom's who's got it all together (do they even exist)? I'm sure my head is in the clouds. In all reality I do know what no mom has ever got it all together, and if they do then they must be pretty boring. I don't want to live my life like a robot. I guess one of my main goals is to become less complacent with the way things are and try to push myself to do more. Not sit down right away when I get out of work. Do the dishes and the laundry, start dinner. Clean up at least a little. We've been in our house for almost 3 months and we are still unpacking boxes. Maybe I just don't know where to start?

Brian will be home soon and today is his birthday. I made him a chicken pot pie and got him a present and some cake. (I know, gasp. I didn't bake a cake myself --  I actually feel guilty about that)

Off I go.